Melanie

I am not sure how this happened, but i know for a fact it did.  For months now I have been single, but yet haven't tried finding anyone to fill the space in my heart...weird huh?  Anyways...I was introduced to myspace, an online service to where you can meet people from all over the world.  Well, one night I get bored and decide to search for locals and I ran across one profile that caught my eye, it was her!  Not knowing her or anything about her, I messaged her hoping for a response.  Not to long after, I got a message...somehow or another I got her AIM name and we start chatting.  As we are conversating, she tells me she is currently in Germany.  So, I think about it for a while and I was just bummed.  I mean, when we would talk for hours, just everything she said, would put a smile on my face and give me the butterflies.  I have never had that feeling that quick.  Well, later on I find out she is moving back next June.  So I think nothing of it...she's just another girl i met online that i will stop talking to after a week...haha...your wrong...there was something about this girl that made me want to know more and more.  As the days pass, we both learn things about the other we didnt know..just a way of creating a wonderful,lasting friendship.  Deep inside, I have this feeling...I want something more out of it...but I'm not sure what...but I think I have figured it out...she moves back in a year...we have been talking to each other online for months now and things are just incredible.  We share our weird moments, our every thoughts, our up and down times...i mean just about anything you could imagine....whatever comes out, we say.  I mean it's so weird because I recently (6 months ago) got out of a relationship lasting over 4 years, and when it comes to Mel, I can think of just about anything to talk about, I seem to make her laugh, make her smile, give her the butterflies, share the same thoughts and dreams..i mean just about anything you wouldnt think we would talk about or share the same interest in, we do!  I mean it's amazing!  I used to stay up late thinking about what I could have done right to fix my last relationship, but now that I have her to talk to and her to see everyday through the net...its amazing...like God has done this for some reason...i dunno...is it possible for you to have feelings for someone your not able to touch? Speak to? Hold? Kiss? Well, I never thought anything like this would happen, but I know it's right...I think of her daily, my mind is always on her...waiting on my next email from her...or my next message on aim....she just makes my life an easier life..no more heartaches, no more pain, no more crying, and definately no more crying.  She means everything to me.  I smile when I repeat her name over and over in my head, I laugh when I think of something she said to me in an earlier conversation...i mean it's just so awesome...